Yes, it’s only been day 1 and guess what! I’m still miserable. I’m miserable the moment i wake up. Not much that has change though. Haven’t had a proper meal since 2 days ago and hardly any sleep. Mind’s all stressed over school and all. My reaction kinda slowed down abit and i’m always staring into space. Feeling like crap and of course physically too. It’s like although i’m tired and all but i just cant get any rest. Been fueling myself with coffee and junk food since yesterday. It’s like i’m a walking dead right now. I’m currently so miserable and stressed, i actually forgot that i wore the same shirt to school just now and only realized when im in the bus to WS interchange. That bad. I admit to smoking yesterday, it was really too much to handle with school projects/presentations and upcoming lab tests. But well i didn’t smoked at all today. Well i guess today’s a start to change. I really miss you so much dear, i really do. I’ve never felt so down in my entire life before. I’ve been checking my phone every 5minutes just to see whether there’s any text from you. I’m tempted to send you a text today but i thought that maybe it’s just too early, you might still be angry at me. So i’ll wait for a few more days. I’m like slowly breaking down with all the things that’s going around. I’ll try my best not to smoke if i’m too stressed with school.

Even when i’m rushing for completion of my PM assignment, i’d still slowly take my time and keep checking my phone. It’s like nothing else really matters now. My eye’s are starting to get swollen and all. Begged at Yat to check for me whether you’re doing alright and he told me you’re doing fine. Well that’s good to hear but i’m still thinking alot about you. Well I don’t really know how to explain but i guess i was hoping if you’d actually asked him about me or something coz i don’t really know. Currently it’s only Day 1 and I really cannot take it. I really miss you so much. I guess i deserve all this and i know you still wont be seeing me or talking to me for awhile. Do you know that i always need you by my side, while im at my strongest and at my weakest. You’re like my fuel of life. The joy just to see you smile because of me. That’s the greatest feeling i can ever feel coming from anyone. I.MISS.YOU & I.LOVE.YOU.BABY  T.T